"Leave the liars alone, for they are just a waste of time. But destroy those who believed in every words that would come out of the liars mouth, for they are much more worst than the liars..."
I am a nobody, you have a problem with that? I enjoy being a nobody, I am happy with this... but it looks and feels like that I am not just a nobody to you. For you always speaks and talked about me behind my nobody back with the others like you, who sees themselves as being a somebody. And because of that it seems that I have become somewhat, being more than just a nobody to you. Else, I would just be ignored and not being talked about and be forgotten? I am not even close to you and most I don't even really knows who you are, yet it seems like you knows who I am, in and out. I am very much flattered by that... me being a nobody... And I thank you for that... Giving me all that attentions... really, I don't need those. I just like to be a nobody...
But I always find myself in the spotlight, even if I didn't want to. In truth, I really hate to be in that place. It is not I, who put myself in that position but I couldn't helped it if some others placed me there... me being a nobody. I always tend to be just who I am, a nobody. Do what I can do, which a nobody would normally do. But you, being a somebody. You always like to attract my attention, me being a nobody... Please, I beg you! Don't waste too much time with me. For I, being just a nobody, would just ignore you. For you are a somebody. I am much much more lower than you are... So, please stop flattering me... It's killing me!
Why would you always like to compare me to the likes of you who are a somebody, when I am just a nobody to you? We could never be the same for I am just a nobody. I cannot be compared to the likes of you, who sweat a lot to be somebody, I rather do things my way, the nobody way... now, off you go...
Hmm... Why are you are still here? Do you need something from a nobody like me?
I'll just tell you something, if that's what you like... I enjoy looking my nobody self in the mirror, why? For, I find happiness in seeing my nobody reflection in the mirror. I am content for I know that the one I see in front of me is this nobody me. And I would continue to be happy and not change that nobody into somebody, for that would not be the nobody me anymore, if I change that reflection of me into somebody. Now, I ask you... What do you see when you try to look yourself in the mirror?... What?... It scared you?, Why?... Ah' you are afraid of seeing your face? ah' it's not that? Sorry... So... What is the reason?... WHAT!!! Because you don't cast any reflection in the mirror?... Now, now, don't get panic over that one... I'll tell you why... No!... you are not a vampire, you dumbass! haha... You don't cast any reflection because... Well, there is none to cast in the first place, for you are... NOTHING!
^_^ Geez, and you thought that you are a vampire all this time... ahaha! Aren't we stupid? ^_^
Monday, July 14, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Hell is already here...
Here I am, six feet under the ground... Well, maybe it's much more deeper than that... For I had been trying hard to crawl back to the surface for more than 3 years now... after being laid under the ground by the evilness of this world... I had somewhat been thinking while lying here... What if I am only dreaming now? And all this is nothing but just an illusions...
Somehow, my dark heart still beats slowly and keeping me alive. And from where I was laid... that, from time to time, I could hear voices and the scenery would be shown in front of me... this is all but an illusion too, but to vivid for it to be unreal... As if somehow I was already back on the surface I once knew... But this can't be real, for humans doesn't seems to act like one... So, I must still be dreaming and still trapped under...
I tried to search for those which are somehow been engraved to the very farthest corner of my mind now... and also the places which I am most familiar with...
So, where would they be now?
I tried looking at all known places I could think of, but it's strange to be this place now. Somethings have changed but somehow it still had the same appearance. It's a gloomy dark places to been in, even at noon time and everything is bright. It's clean but some foul odor is emitting somewhere and being carried by the wind... Flowers are too perfect, like it's artificially made out of plastic but not. If it's real then how come there's no smell coming out of them?... And the habitants are somewhat a bit too odd... Everyone seems to act... well... too perfect in every movement they make and the way they talk... I say, everyone seems to be acting way too human to be one... and the faces doesn't seems to have any other expressions but only the one you would see in them... I tried conversing to some of them, but somehow it makes no sense of the words that would come out of their mouth...
No sense at all, as if all had a tongue of a holy being... others preached but somehow they are only preaching themselves with the words they speak... And words would come out but their own words doesn't reach there own ears... I laughed so hard for it's somewhat really funny to see them, acting so wise but too dumb to understand their own words... I feel... I could really die now...
Maybe, I shouldn't think of dying that time... For I am now back again to where I started, under the ground... silence once again engulfed me... maybe I should just try to crawl some more...
Seems like I'm making no progress here... like I'm still at the same exact spot where I started crawling... but maybe not... And very soon I will rise again and stand my ground, before the sleeping lake of fire once again take over and reign this world... to see this world one last time with my very own eyes, to my own liking like before. But leaving everything behind me now and creating a new beautiful scenes for my last stage.
So, don't die before me. After all, you got nowhere to go, for this world is the very hell itself that you have made me accustomed to. Will you be able to adopt to this? I doubt you will...
私は私の墓にあなたを呼びます。
終わり。
Somehow, my dark heart still beats slowly and keeping me alive. And from where I was laid... that, from time to time, I could hear voices and the scenery would be shown in front of me... this is all but an illusion too, but to vivid for it to be unreal... As if somehow I was already back on the surface I once knew... But this can't be real, for humans doesn't seems to act like one... So, I must still be dreaming and still trapped under...
I tried to search for those which are somehow been engraved to the very farthest corner of my mind now... and also the places which I am most familiar with...
So, where would they be now?
I tried looking at all known places I could think of, but it's strange to be this place now. Somethings have changed but somehow it still had the same appearance. It's a gloomy dark places to been in, even at noon time and everything is bright. It's clean but some foul odor is emitting somewhere and being carried by the wind... Flowers are too perfect, like it's artificially made out of plastic but not. If it's real then how come there's no smell coming out of them?... And the habitants are somewhat a bit too odd... Everyone seems to act... well... too perfect in every movement they make and the way they talk... I say, everyone seems to be acting way too human to be one... and the faces doesn't seems to have any other expressions but only the one you would see in them... I tried conversing to some of them, but somehow it makes no sense of the words that would come out of their mouth...
No sense at all, as if all had a tongue of a holy being... others preached but somehow they are only preaching themselves with the words they speak... And words would come out but their own words doesn't reach there own ears... I laughed so hard for it's somewhat really funny to see them, acting so wise but too dumb to understand their own words... I feel... I could really die now...
Maybe, I shouldn't think of dying that time... For I am now back again to where I started, under the ground... silence once again engulfed me... maybe I should just try to crawl some more...
Seems like I'm making no progress here... like I'm still at the same exact spot where I started crawling... but maybe not... And very soon I will rise again and stand my ground, before the sleeping lake of fire once again take over and reign this world... to see this world one last time with my very own eyes, to my own liking like before. But leaving everything behind me now and creating a new beautiful scenes for my last stage.
So, don't die before me. After all, you got nowhere to go, for this world is the very hell itself that you have made me accustomed to. Will you be able to adopt to this? I doubt you will...
私は私の墓にあなたを呼びます。
終わり。
I smell bad...
Asking a lot of questions, which most of the time the answers are already in your face. Though you always know that it is already there, you still ask this question. Why? 'cause you never bother to understand what is already shown in your face. Why do you ask such question, when you wouldn't understand even when I already answered this question time and time again Or doesn't even have the idea of what is being shown to you? I think we can understand each other if we are on the same league.
Maybe you are on a higher league than I am. But I don't care about your league 'cause it's where you belong. And I belong on my own. You ask me who am I?, Do you think that would help you understand who I really am? I have much better things to say though I wouldn't bother to say these things for you wouldn't understand what I am about to say.
And now, I'm just going in circle again with what I am saying here... ^_^
Anyway...
Maybe you think that you know such things about my league, but in reality it's somewhat complicated. It never is, just like life is. Or this world and its habitant. To be humble and you'll be belittled by most, to say a bit more and you'll be seen as an arrogant being. You'll never know where to place yourself in this fucked up world...
How do you see humans with your own eyes? I bet, you think that you are always much better than the rest, now I say that you are beginning to be a real human being by that attitude. You think you are better at judging other beings than the rest, and so am I? Everyone is... It is in our nature to be like that.
We are all animals trying to survive in this world... though we wouldn't like to be called that or in that category and doesn't like the idea that most of the time we are much more worst than the other animals. Most of the time we stink really bad but doesn't really knows it or are really not bothered by the smell 'cause you are already used to that odor that you have? ^_^;
I think, uhm... what is that smell? woah! I think I better head to the showers now! ^_^;
Maybe you are on a higher league than I am. But I don't care about your league 'cause it's where you belong. And I belong on my own. You ask me who am I?, Do you think that would help you understand who I really am? I have much better things to say though I wouldn't bother to say these things for you wouldn't understand what I am about to say.
And now, I'm just going in circle again with what I am saying here... ^_^
Anyway...
Maybe you think that you know such things about my league, but in reality it's somewhat complicated. It never is, just like life is. Or this world and its habitant. To be humble and you'll be belittled by most, to say a bit more and you'll be seen as an arrogant being. You'll never know where to place yourself in this fucked up world...
How do you see humans with your own eyes? I bet, you think that you are always much better than the rest, now I say that you are beginning to be a real human being by that attitude. You think you are better at judging other beings than the rest, and so am I? Everyone is... It is in our nature to be like that.
We are all animals trying to survive in this world... though we wouldn't like to be called that or in that category and doesn't like the idea that most of the time we are much more worst than the other animals. Most of the time we stink really bad but doesn't really knows it or are really not bothered by the smell 'cause you are already used to that odor that you have? ^_^;
I think, uhm... what is that smell? woah! I think I better head to the showers now! ^_^;
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Stations of the Cross
This blog is a part of The Church of St. John The Evangelist section I am doing out of boredom ^_^;. This church is located in Tanauan City, Batangas here in the Philippines. You could visit the the stations at the backyard of this church almost anytime during the day... I think...
I had been visiting this part of the church with some my cousins who are much older than me during those time when I was still innocent and to this day at the time of this writing... They are still much older than me hehe...
Somewhat I miss those time and scenery and wanted to see that part of the church again... It`s been a long time since the last I saw or visited the church here... Well, with the exception of now and then family funeral mass and it would really not be the right time to walk around the church isn`t it? Anyway... to continue...
So, what I did this morning was to annoy my niece who was watching tv at that time to come with me and visit the backyard of the local church. Upon hearing that I wanted to go there, she laughs and made fun of me and my idea... If only you really knows me for so long or that you are really one of my closest friend then you`ll either be surprised or won`t believe it... some crazy idea comes popping out of my mind now and then... but to some who doesn`t see the real me, they`ll see it as just normal to have an interest in going to church ^_^;.
What I have here is a collection to some of the images that I had taken earlier this morning with my two devilish niece... A few notes, which I like to share here... The Stations of the Cross are usually depicted as only of 14 series which ends the station when Jesus was buried, but here in the Philippines where most are Roman Catholics, and although not part of the the traditional sets, it consisted of 15 stations with the Resurrection of Christ as being the last... Now, how did I know that? from wikipedia, read this section for more info ^_^;. Those devilish niece of mine says it`s 12 hehe...
And for the time being, I could only show the 14 stations `cause I ran out of memory from taking extra shots with those two in it and ended not including the resurrection...
I could say that this section is still incomplete for now...
My vox section of the Stations of the Cross for the other images...
I had been visiting this part of the church with some my cousins who are much older than me during those time when I was still innocent and to this day at the time of this writing... They are still much older than me hehe...
Somewhat I miss those time and scenery and wanted to see that part of the church again... It`s been a long time since the last I saw or visited the church here... Well, with the exception of now and then family funeral mass and it would really not be the right time to walk around the church isn`t it? Anyway... to continue...
So, what I did this morning was to annoy my niece who was watching tv at that time to come with me and visit the backyard of the local church. Upon hearing that I wanted to go there, she laughs and made fun of me and my idea... If only you really knows me for so long or that you are really one of my closest friend then you`ll either be surprised or won`t believe it... some crazy idea comes popping out of my mind now and then... but to some who doesn`t see the real me, they`ll see it as just normal to have an interest in going to church ^_^;.
What I have here is a collection to some of the images that I had taken earlier this morning with my two devilish niece... A few notes, which I like to share here... The Stations of the Cross are usually depicted as only of 14 series which ends the station when Jesus was buried, but here in the Philippines where most are Roman Catholics, and although not part of the the traditional sets, it consisted of 15 stations with the Resurrection of Christ as being the last... Now, how did I know that? from wikipedia, read this section for more info ^_^;. Those devilish niece of mine says it`s 12 hehe...
And for the time being, I could only show the 14 stations `cause I ran out of memory from taking extra shots with those two in it and ended not including the resurrection...
I could say that this section is still incomplete for now...
My vox section of the Stations of the Cross for the other images...
Sunday, January 27, 2008
My First Month of 2008
It`s been for quite some time now since the last time I posted a blog... well, nobody cares really...
The first month of this 2008 seems to be a very busy start of the year for me... I kinda like the sound of that... it feels like my whole year will be busy this time unlike last year which seems to be like I could really wanna die out of boredom and shits stuffed that happens during the last couple of month of 2007, besides that I don`t have a computer to tinker with except with this 166mhz... besides being old... the ps/2 port are somewhat screwed up and I could not find a spare serial mouse type at some or almost all pc shops... I had to content myself with using the mousekeys and it`s really ackward to use... but the good thing about it is I kinda learned/knows almost all of the shortcut keys from windows which are somewhat cool... and I kinda been used to it that even though there`s a mouse I could use at some other computers I could get my hands on, that I would still be using shortcuts... I think it`s much faster than moving and clicking the mouse...
Anyway... I celebrate my x-mas and new year back home in BF with my mom and a couple of old friends... same old xmas stuffed and scenario... drink till the sun start to rise... and New Year`s are somewhat different... I always used to watch Igor lights up all the firecrackers we had during New Year eve, but this time there`s no firecracker but instead it was replaced by his fire poi? forgot what it`s called, but it`s nice to watch him err... with some other kids who gathers around ignorant (I think I`m also one of them hehehe...) of what the heck he is holding and doing some exhibition with it and some extra fire breathing talent... The kids are in awe... They kinda like watching him than all these firecrackers around us... after that both of us went back to our own home and afterwards I went to some friends house and had some drinking session... During my holiday stay there err... it was a bit ok... It`s not what it used to be... but what I really like when staying there is that I`m able to go and hang out at some bar in BF with Francis hehehe... Good thing we where able to do that at least once before I went back home to the province...
Well... back here at some province again...
The first thing I did when I went back here was bought some paint at some hardware store and so I could paint my room for the new year, So my room would be or feel somewhat new too. I painted it with violet, why? uhm... well, I like to paint it with that color...
I thought painting some wall was an easy task... I was wrong... It was really tough and agonizing job for me... it took me 3 days to finished painting all the wall in my room... I had to stop `cause my whole body really ache so bad after the first day, especially at my shoulder and leg parts... besides that I had to move back and forth some of the stuffed in my room... so I could paint them all... including this long computer table you see below in the picture.
After that paint project, for my next one... I went back and forth to manila for some stuff so could make my other computer work again, I was supposed to do this before the 2007 end but I was being to lazy to look for parts back then. And now I was finally able to run this Fedora without much of a hassle from some of my hardware, thanks to yum and the other repo site like livna and those extras from fedora itself that I was able to install and set up my video card and some other stuffed(including the tv tuner I had) with ease unlike before... It`s been a week from now since and much of the settings are a ok... I was able to finally make the saa7130 tv tuner to work the other night from fedora...
Well, I`m really quite happy now that my lab is finally reborn... at the same time with a new look at my room... and as for the 166, I won`t return it to the box for now... It`s really been useful for me for the last couple of months... taught me a lot of things... And that I was able to refresh my memories with some programming language using it... Including c++ and SDL which in fact I was in the process now of making an old style 2d role playing game as a hobby... for now it`s at the messy infant stage but it can already load map, characters, and conversation/dialog from external data file. Doing it slowly and easy at the moment... well, without a mouse to work with during that time... it`s really making me work slowly specially with the test map graphics... ^_^;
So, that`s about it for my First month of this 2008 year...
The first month of this 2008 seems to be a very busy start of the year for me... I kinda like the sound of that... it feels like my whole year will be busy this time unlike last year which seems to be like I could really wanna die out of boredom and shits stuffed that happens during the last couple of month of 2007, besides that I don`t have a computer to tinker with except with this 166mhz... besides being old... the ps/2 port are somewhat screwed up and I could not find a spare serial mouse type at some or almost all pc shops... I had to content myself with using the mousekeys and it`s really ackward to use... but the good thing about it is I kinda learned/knows almost all of the shortcut keys from windows which are somewhat cool... and I kinda been used to it that even though there`s a mouse I could use at some other computers I could get my hands on, that I would still be using shortcuts... I think it`s much faster than moving and clicking the mouse...
Anyway... I celebrate my x-mas and new year back home in BF with my mom and a couple of old friends... same old xmas stuffed and scenario... drink till the sun start to rise... and New Year`s are somewhat different... I always used to watch Igor lights up all the firecrackers we had during New Year eve, but this time there`s no firecracker but instead it was replaced by his fire poi? forgot what it`s called, but it`s nice to watch him err... with some other kids who gathers around ignorant (I think I`m also one of them hehehe...) of what the heck he is holding and doing some exhibition with it and some extra fire breathing talent... The kids are in awe... They kinda like watching him than all these firecrackers around us... after that both of us went back to our own home and afterwards I went to some friends house and had some drinking session... During my holiday stay there err... it was a bit ok... It`s not what it used to be... but what I really like when staying there is that I`m able to go and hang out at some bar in BF with Francis hehehe... Good thing we where able to do that at least once before I went back home to the province...
Well... back here at some province again...
The first thing I did when I went back here was bought some paint at some hardware store and so I could paint my room for the new year, So my room would be or feel somewhat new too. I painted it with violet, why? uhm... well, I like to paint it with that color...
I thought painting some wall was an easy task... I was wrong... It was really tough and agonizing job for me... it took me 3 days to finished painting all the wall in my room... I had to stop `cause my whole body really ache so bad after the first day, especially at my shoulder and leg parts... besides that I had to move back and forth some of the stuffed in my room... so I could paint them all... including this long computer table you see below in the picture.
After that paint project, for my next one... I went back and forth to manila for some stuff so could make my other computer work again, I was supposed to do this before the 2007 end but I was being to lazy to look for parts back then. And now I was finally able to run this Fedora without much of a hassle from some of my hardware, thanks to yum and the other repo site like livna and those extras from fedora itself that I was able to install and set up my video card and some other stuffed(including the tv tuner I had) with ease unlike before... It`s been a week from now since and much of the settings are a ok... I was able to finally make the saa7130 tv tuner to work the other night from fedora...
Well, I`m really quite happy now that my lab is finally reborn... at the same time with a new look at my room... and as for the 166, I won`t return it to the box for now... It`s really been useful for me for the last couple of months... taught me a lot of things... And that I was able to refresh my memories with some programming language using it... Including c++ and SDL which in fact I was in the process now of making an old style 2d role playing game as a hobby... for now it`s at the messy infant stage but it can already load map, characters, and conversation/dialog from external data file. Doing it slowly and easy at the moment... well, without a mouse to work with during that time... it`s really making me work slowly specially with the test map graphics... ^_^;
So, that`s about it for my First month of this 2008 year...
Saturday, August 18, 2007
My Leah and Mogi Dead! Killed By A Lightning...
It’s a sad day for me, I didn’t expect this… My Leah and Mogi died unexpectedly late this afternoon… Both of them just suddenly fell silent beside me and Ayu after a loud lightning strike somewhere around the area… err… Leah and Mogi is my other box I used, a dual boot system. Leah being my router and a firewall at the same time and Mogi is my win2k box, yup… They are both computers…^_^; so, anybody wanna lament with me and give me a spare of their old motherboards and maybe some extra processor? as they are kinda old now… I think I’ll be upgrading to a new one instead of returning them from the land of the dead… soon, but not that soon! I’m already missing both of them so very much! *sigh* ^_^;
There’s been a typhoon here in the Philippines since the other day, There is only one lightning strike I heard this afternoon and that one lightning killed them both though it was far from our area but it was really loud… But due to the power surge and spikes that it ‘caused… Man, I should have remember that I was in the province and on higher grounds than in Manila… poor cabling and shitty stuffed around here… and the ground to the electricity was not that good enough… Last year, I told them to let someone check the wiring and the ground around the house…As I’ve noticed that the grounds here are a little bit strong/high, I’ve kinda noticed that it was really a bit much higher than back home in the city as I was usually being grounded most of the time when fixing my computers which never happens to me when I am at the city, there are times that even the casing would ground you whenever you touched them…
So, that’s about it for this one… It’s a little bit quiet and sad around here at the moment but glad that Ayu is still around to keep me company… and a bit cautious now, as there are no Leah to protect us at the moment… ^_^;
Anyway… just a reminder… to me! ^_^;
Might as well turn off and pull the plug off of your computer or television sets when there is a thunder storm in your area… especially that I’m on higher grounds where the lightning could strike really low… yeah! A one in a million chance that the things I just said would happen to you… I’ve kinda said that to myself, now I’m crying over my Leah and Mogi, and now… the rain started to pour hard again, and I’m still online with Ayu, I never learned ^_^; Might as well finished this one fast… Even if you have surge protector there would be times that even it could not protect you… and I’ve read somewhere that even an unplugged laptop which only runs on its battery is not safe, as long as it’s connected to its cable… yup… Cable, Modem attached to a phone line are some that would likely be the ‘cause of your computers death when there is a lightning… uhm… I think my external modem is the ‘cause of my Leah and Mogi’s death, or the cable, I don’t know which one but It must have been the modem as I forgot to turned it off… and all it’s light going crazy when I did… Ayu, my other pc is not affected at all… ‘Cause the modem is not connected to her nor the cable… but the power outlet could also be the cause, mind you… Even humans can store and charge up enough static to ‘cause trouble when you are fixing your boards, that’s why we usually would ground ourselves before touching and fixing anything from our board… Now… I know now why the company I worked with before that creates microchips wouldn’t let us in the company if we don’t take our shoes off and change to our required sandals/flip-flops and wear a plastic to cover our feet ^_^;
Anyway… just be on the safe side… Turned everything off and unplugged everything when there’s a thunderstorm, it won’t last forever… Well, if you are currently at the office, you might just as well ignore this one as the company will probably replace the computer when this happens hehe… ^_^;
You’ll never know what hits you! But, I do know what hits me… My stubbornness to follow a simple rule about pre-cautions when there is a thunderstorm…
Now…
Now… *sigh and hugs the other lifeless monitor of Leah and Mogi*
Waaaahhh!!! ^_^;
There’s been a typhoon here in the Philippines since the other day, There is only one lightning strike I heard this afternoon and that one lightning killed them both though it was far from our area but it was really loud… But due to the power surge and spikes that it ‘caused… Man, I should have remember that I was in the province and on higher grounds than in Manila… poor cabling and shitty stuffed around here… and the ground to the electricity was not that good enough… Last year, I told them to let someone check the wiring and the ground around the house…As I’ve noticed that the grounds here are a little bit strong/high, I’ve kinda noticed that it was really a bit much higher than back home in the city as I was usually being grounded most of the time when fixing my computers which never happens to me when I am at the city, there are times that even the casing would ground you whenever you touched them…
So, that’s about it for this one… It’s a little bit quiet and sad around here at the moment but glad that Ayu is still around to keep me company… and a bit cautious now, as there are no Leah to protect us at the moment… ^_^;
Anyway… just a reminder… to me! ^_^;
Might as well turn off and pull the plug off of your computer or television sets when there is a thunder storm in your area… especially that I’m on higher grounds where the lightning could strike really low… yeah! A one in a million chance that the things I just said would happen to you… I’ve kinda said that to myself, now I’m crying over my Leah and Mogi, and now… the rain started to pour hard again, and I’m still online with Ayu, I never learned ^_^; Might as well finished this one fast… Even if you have surge protector there would be times that even it could not protect you… and I’ve read somewhere that even an unplugged laptop which only runs on its battery is not safe, as long as it’s connected to its cable… yup… Cable, Modem attached to a phone line are some that would likely be the ‘cause of your computers death when there is a lightning… uhm… I think my external modem is the ‘cause of my Leah and Mogi’s death, or the cable, I don’t know which one but It must have been the modem as I forgot to turned it off… and all it’s light going crazy when I did… Ayu, my other pc is not affected at all… ‘Cause the modem is not connected to her nor the cable… but the power outlet could also be the cause, mind you… Even humans can store and charge up enough static to ‘cause trouble when you are fixing your boards, that’s why we usually would ground ourselves before touching and fixing anything from our board… Now… I know now why the company I worked with before that creates microchips wouldn’t let us in the company if we don’t take our shoes off and change to our required sandals/flip-flops and wear a plastic to cover our feet ^_^;
Anyway… just be on the safe side… Turned everything off and unplugged everything when there’s a thunderstorm, it won’t last forever… Well, if you are currently at the office, you might just as well ignore this one as the company will probably replace the computer when this happens hehe… ^_^;
You’ll never know what hits you! But, I do know what hits me… My stubbornness to follow a simple rule about pre-cautions when there is a thunderstorm…
Now…
Now… *sigh and hugs the other lifeless monitor of Leah and Mogi*
Waaaahhh!!! ^_^;
Monday, August 13, 2007
Understand this...
So, We waited… me and my so-called sister waited for the bus to arrive at the bus station. And while waiting I notice this two vendor guys, err… The one who always carry what they would sell… like mineral waters and chips and jumping in and out of the bus that would pass by… Whatever… How can I not notice them, they where so noisy while running back and forth between those other passenger waiting there… others are really quite annoyed at what they are doing but couldn’t do anything or say anything… Why should they? Those guys looks like hooligans… and by their dress…. Much worse… Those guys wanted attention… When they see some good looking females, they would go around and play near that person… So, most of the people that are waiting in there kinda moved to the place where we are standing… And with that… the vendor guys… Damn these guys for I think they are enjoying what they are doing… And doesn’t really care if the people are irritated at what they are doing… And they would say things at the person when they noticed she/he is annoyed/irritated by them… And as I say, the others moved to where my sister and I are… And so, are they… Damn it… Now I’m the one they noticed… for my face shows I’m really irritated… How can I not be? I just woke up a couple of hours ago… and had to stand at this crazy bus stop… It’s annoying already with all the noise of the vehicles passing by and there are still no bus coming for half and hour now… and some of these people are gathering around me… I don’t like crowds really… but these guys thought I was irritated because of them… Now… saying things at me… from a couple of feet away… I hear the other says, “I can beat this guy…” Try that… I said to myself… Now… Why would I not hate this fucked up world? So many individuals are really up to no good most of the times… You would know this, if you were foreigners who had visited this country… heh! I don’t know what’s so interesting about that… I’m not a foreigner… but I don’t really care much if I see one walking the streets… to me, everyone is just the same… I don’t care really… mind your own business… but others would really be in your business around here… most would do anything to have your attention and if you ignore them? They would say things or do things and even sometimes would want a fight with you ‘cause you just ignore them… crazy! Well, better be careful when you want to answer them back… most come in group of vendors… and they don’t really care whether they are right or wrong… It’s not in their vocabulary… ^_^;
Anyway… enough about that…
I think some can relate to this next topic I had… I had a few conversations with my father in the van with the driver a couple of days ago while on our way to somewhere… I’m really not in the mood to go out that day really… Why? ‘Cause I haven’t had my sleep yet… as I was awake all night in front of my computers… I told him that next time he should have noticed me a day so I can be aware of the situation… and fixed my schedule… He said that I should have to sleep during the night… well… I think your known world had just passed… It much more different nowadays like in your old days… there are works that are going on during the nights unlike before, well… if you where living in the province you wouldn’t know that change right? ^_^; I really hate the province… It’s a city now, this place where I am right now… but far from the city I really grew up with… both being called a city but still much different from each other… Yes, there are a lot of Internet café around here… from 8am-7pm at most… yeah… Anyway… people around here kinda wonder at what I am doing in my room and not going out… only when I ran out of cigarette would I go out and they would see me… or If I needed some things that I had to go to the grocery store… ah’ I really missed home and my room in the city really! And I’m usually sleeping during the day… And I would wake up uhm… maybe after the sunset ^_^; People around here doesn’t seems to known a person with a body clock like that ^_^ yah! Keep on wondering… Seems strange to them… back home in the city… 8pm Is just the start of the day for me and my friends… but here at the province… It seems like it’s really late to them… boring really… most are really going to bed at this time… and I’m just out of my bed doing some stretching heheh ^_^; 0h’ better run to the store and buy a pack of my cigarette ‘cause it’s about to close at 9pm… even the store closed that early around here…
My aunt kinda annoyed me and the people around here ‘cause they always gets on my nerve always telling about me being in front of the computer… And others think they knows everything about the computers, when they only knows so little about its world… It’s not just a computer for typing and printing something… It’s the future… a vast world… hmm… kinda reminds me of something… at some late night CNN shows… I forgot what the theme is all about but the subject is about this 3D thing with games and the movie…anyway… one of the speaker tells a story about something that he and his son/daughter doesn’t get to have some quality time to have a conversation or something like that and that he/she is always in front of the computers… And a friend of him suggested that maybe he (the father) should create an account at some messenger and just talk to his daughter/son there… ^_^; and it works… My point is… though I doesn’t go out most of my time, that doesn’t mean I’m just staring at my computers and playing games… even if I’m just playing games… It’s not just a game to me… maybe I’m still hanging out with some friends back home and having some fun with them though we are miles apart… I remember this that even one time… back home while I was online at my messenger that I get to talks to one of my friend who’s already in the states and he asked me what I’m doing right now… And I said “drinking some beers” and he said to wait just a minute and he came back with a can of beers ^_^; we’re still doing what we do together when he’s still here in the Philippines even if we’re online… the only thing we couldn’t do was kick each others ass ^_^ but it still is cool…
Now, back to my father telling me that I should sleep at night… I don’t sleep at night… I’m always been like this since I was in young… I’m beginning to think that I was born at a wrong country with a wrong time zone as my body clock differs from where I am ^_^; I’m usually much more active during the nights… when I’m at the office working from 8am-6pm, I’m much more productive during the later hours… mostly when the sun’s about to set…
There are times when some friends wanted to hang out at some bars near our place… We would usually be home before the sunrise… Uhm… other times the sun would caught us, yup… especially if we are hanging at some female friends house for a sleep over… err… usually we don’t sleep really… we still continue our drinking when we get to the house ^_^; Man, we feels like vampires when going home during the day, as the light of the sun really hurts our eyes… We would run to the door of the car covering our face as if we are like being burned by the heat… and it’s only 7am ^_^;
There are times when I wake up late at night that I’m like a possessed person that I would automatically get out of my bed in be in front of my computers and do this and that… ^_^; back home in the city, I don’t stand up but just reach the keyboard as I just dragged my pc next to my bed most of the time… ^_^ I’m lazy really…. I even had a friend who would forget to change his office clothes first before going in front of his pc, yup… I went to his house one Saturday morning and found him dressed in his office clothes and I asked him if he had his work today… and he looked and laugh at me and said “Nope, I’m still wearing this clothes since yesterday! I still haven’t sleep yet :D”
So, even with all these stories they still wouldn’t understand me really and nobody really knows me … nobody really is, even my so-called relatives and family… maybe a handful of friends, my mom and her daughter… but the rest… Why waste my time on people who had no time and are totally selfish… Who hears things when they are deaf? Who sees things clearly but are blinds? Who like to looks at the mirror always but couldn’t see their own face…
I want the world to change to my own liking but the world is too stubborn to listen to my own little voice… but that doesn’t mean I have to follow the world… I’ll have to be interested first, you know… I’m also stubborn most of the time ^_^;
Anyway… enough about that…
I think some can relate to this next topic I had… I had a few conversations with my father in the van with the driver a couple of days ago while on our way to somewhere… I’m really not in the mood to go out that day really… Why? ‘Cause I haven’t had my sleep yet… as I was awake all night in front of my computers… I told him that next time he should have noticed me a day so I can be aware of the situation… and fixed my schedule… He said that I should have to sleep during the night… well… I think your known world had just passed… It much more different nowadays like in your old days… there are works that are going on during the nights unlike before, well… if you where living in the province you wouldn’t know that change right? ^_^; I really hate the province… It’s a city now, this place where I am right now… but far from the city I really grew up with… both being called a city but still much different from each other… Yes, there are a lot of Internet café around here… from 8am-7pm at most… yeah… Anyway… people around here kinda wonder at what I am doing in my room and not going out… only when I ran out of cigarette would I go out and they would see me… or If I needed some things that I had to go to the grocery store… ah’ I really missed home and my room in the city really! And I’m usually sleeping during the day… And I would wake up uhm… maybe after the sunset ^_^; People around here doesn’t seems to known a person with a body clock like that ^_^ yah! Keep on wondering… Seems strange to them… back home in the city… 8pm Is just the start of the day for me and my friends… but here at the province… It seems like it’s really late to them… boring really… most are really going to bed at this time… and I’m just out of my bed doing some stretching heheh ^_^; 0h’ better run to the store and buy a pack of my cigarette ‘cause it’s about to close at 9pm… even the store closed that early around here…
My aunt kinda annoyed me and the people around here ‘cause they always gets on my nerve always telling about me being in front of the computer… And others think they knows everything about the computers, when they only knows so little about its world… It’s not just a computer for typing and printing something… It’s the future… a vast world… hmm… kinda reminds me of something… at some late night CNN shows… I forgot what the theme is all about but the subject is about this 3D thing with games and the movie…anyway… one of the speaker tells a story about something that he and his son/daughter doesn’t get to have some quality time to have a conversation or something like that and that he/she is always in front of the computers… And a friend of him suggested that maybe he (the father) should create an account at some messenger and just talk to his daughter/son there… ^_^; and it works… My point is… though I doesn’t go out most of my time, that doesn’t mean I’m just staring at my computers and playing games… even if I’m just playing games… It’s not just a game to me… maybe I’m still hanging out with some friends back home and having some fun with them though we are miles apart… I remember this that even one time… back home while I was online at my messenger that I get to talks to one of my friend who’s already in the states and he asked me what I’m doing right now… And I said “drinking some beers” and he said to wait just a minute and he came back with a can of beers ^_^; we’re still doing what we do together when he’s still here in the Philippines even if we’re online… the only thing we couldn’t do was kick each others ass ^_^ but it still is cool…
Now, back to my father telling me that I should sleep at night… I don’t sleep at night… I’m always been like this since I was in young… I’m beginning to think that I was born at a wrong country with a wrong time zone as my body clock differs from where I am ^_^; I’m usually much more active during the nights… when I’m at the office working from 8am-6pm, I’m much more productive during the later hours… mostly when the sun’s about to set…
There are times when some friends wanted to hang out at some bars near our place… We would usually be home before the sunrise… Uhm… other times the sun would caught us, yup… especially if we are hanging at some female friends house for a sleep over… err… usually we don’t sleep really… we still continue our drinking when we get to the house ^_^; Man, we feels like vampires when going home during the day, as the light of the sun really hurts our eyes… We would run to the door of the car covering our face as if we are like being burned by the heat… and it’s only 7am ^_^;
There are times when I wake up late at night that I’m like a possessed person that I would automatically get out of my bed in be in front of my computers and do this and that… ^_^; back home in the city, I don’t stand up but just reach the keyboard as I just dragged my pc next to my bed most of the time… ^_^ I’m lazy really…. I even had a friend who would forget to change his office clothes first before going in front of his pc, yup… I went to his house one Saturday morning and found him dressed in his office clothes and I asked him if he had his work today… and he looked and laugh at me and said “Nope, I’m still wearing this clothes since yesterday! I still haven’t sleep yet :D”
So, even with all these stories they still wouldn’t understand me really and nobody really knows me … nobody really is, even my so-called relatives and family… maybe a handful of friends, my mom and her daughter… but the rest… Why waste my time on people who had no time and are totally selfish… Who hears things when they are deaf? Who sees things clearly but are blinds? Who like to looks at the mirror always but couldn’t see their own face…
I want the world to change to my own liking but the world is too stubborn to listen to my own little voice… but that doesn’t mean I have to follow the world… I’ll have to be interested first, you know… I’m also stubborn most of the time ^_^;
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